Hello

It’s official. I am fat.

I know I have repeated this phrase a million times, but everyone disagreed with me. Now, everyone agrees I am a bit “healthy” I have never been skinny, but, neither have I ever been at this stage in my life.

Guess this is what happens when you go on a food binge for months….

It’s embarrassing, really. Looking at myself in the mirror, I feel ugly. I am not saying fat people are ugly. I just feel unhealthy-type ugly. It’s disgusting when my ‘comfort jeans’ don’t fit me anymore. I have nothing to wear except elastic leggings and long tops. Ugh.

It’s not that I didn’t know this would happen (to be honest, I actually never thought I would reach THIS stage), I was warned. But, you know, that feeling, when you know you’re going to land up coming out bad but you have to do it coz you just cannot believe it will happen to you.

So I have started a healthier approach to life, whatever that may be. This blog is to document my issues which I cannot scream out loud.

My challenge is to shed all the extra “love” and go back to being myself again. Soon. Very soon.